Letting Go

Saying goodbye can be hard.

This month, I’m saying goodbye to two projects. One (AURELIA: Edge of Darkness), because it’s finished. And the other (the Aurelia Bestiary), because it’s getting printed.

Really, they’re two different kinds of goodbyes.

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Wrapping up AURELIA the show is a bittersweet goodbye, because I doubt all the Aurelians will ever be in one place together again. Even if the show launched a second season, the dynamics would change. It’s the way of the world.

I’m excited about what’s to come for the world of Aurelia. But as an often-solitary writer, bringing a fantasy to life alongside talented, passionate actors was unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. It’s been one of the hardest and most magical things I’ve ever done.

This goodbye is one of nostalgia: the realization that life’s best moments never last for long.

The other goodbye, to the Aurelia Bestiary, is a different kind of farewell. Instead of ending, this project is just beginning. As soon as my colleague T. Reed makes final design tweaks, and I proof the text again, it will head to the printer’s and come back a real book.

So why is that a goodbye?

Well, I’m a perfectionist. No matter how many times I check that bestiary, it will return with something I didn’t see: an imperfection. A blemish. Memories of phrasings I wrestled with, ideological choices I made, creatures I included that (if I had it to do over) I might have done differently.

But that’s the nature of creative production. It’s also the nature of perfectionism. In this case, goodbye isn’t so much nostalgia as it is an act of courage against my greatest fear: imperfection.

There are a lot of goodbyes this month.

Saying goodbye is hard, but it also makes us stronger.

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